Psychological abuse leaves behind long-lasting feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy, a sense of being separate from love. After this, it’s common for PTSD to develop as the survivor replays every second in their mind, over and over again. The feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy are so unbearable that the mind is desperately trying to figure out what happened, to ensure it never happens again. The mind slowly develops an illusion of control, by analyzing everything and knowing all the “why” answers.
From here, all sorts of protective walls start to pop up: anger, resentment, fear, and blame. While these are all completely understandable after abuse, they can also block us from the soft love in our hearts. Left in place, these walls can slowly lead to all sorts of personality changes: numbness, people pleasing, excessive solitude, over accomplishing, perfectionism, constant battles—and ultimately depression, anxiety, insomnia, even paranoia.